It is been few months and I am in hell. People in the world have such grave problems where as I have little, tiny problem of decision making.
I have always thought we make our decisions about something or someone in first few minutes or seconds but we cant imply it immediately, reason- we are not willing to accept it. As I grew up, I wanted deeper love. I did find it but it was just too much from my side, I am that kind of person who wants to be crazy and practical at the same time in love. I never wanted to fall but grow together but eventually I realized I was just crazy not practical in love. It is not necessary that other person wants the same. Thus, how disappointment and sadness came in my heart about myself, was I never going to be enough for the person! No matter how much I tried with my brain to keep the relationship going on or the happiness it seemed like touching the impossible sky.
Now just left is anger about self, about the world, about the good memories of the person, even about the stress. I know every thing is over and decision is made but the foolish mind doesn’t let you go off the claws of anger and sadness so easily. People move on so easily and I am even jealous of that.
Even though I am in all this mess, I have a hope about myself, to learn from my mistakes, let go of the anger, cry without hesitation and one day laugh again like I used to-loud and with my heart.
