I remember my father saying this one time, ” In ancient times there were great kings and queens, who would use their swords and weapons on the battlefield to fight, to serve their purpose, to be alive, now every day is a battle of different kind, we need to use our skills, our thoughts to serve the same purpose to our self”
I love archery. Arrow from the bow goes so precisely, like a simple independent thought, once released there is no scope for drama or self doubting. Although there so many thoughts which escape result of not holding the bow properly or when we don’t know what the target is. Point is one day you wake up and you realize, all the drama in life doesn’t matter it is just for entertainment. And you step out of the door of your comfort zone.
I have stepped out of so many doors and there are so many yet to come. I had really short hair like a boy once, I felt confident and thought I am more stronger than other girls. It wasn’t true, I just thought looking like a boy or behaving like would make me feel stronger. People would get off my back when they would look at me as society thinks guys are stronger, girls would love me because in return I would give them boy kind of love. It is so stupid though, I was discriminating indirectly. I loved a girl thinking I should protect her and in return she would give girly care to me. She did! I didn’t appreciate her love, couldn’t love her back fully also. I was weak from inside just pretending to be strong from outside looks.
I had to stop discriminating, start believing in originality of a person. You have to drop the labels which society gives to people. There is no masculinity or femininity. All boys are not grim and stronger neither girls are weaker. I needed to be mature enough to understand this and be original. Years after I find myself in long hair and simple dressing. I feel comfortable in my skin and I am actually able to think without discriminating genders.
Waking from this makes you realize, it is not necessary boys and girls should do certain things or take responsibilities in work or relationship. There is no such drama left, there are less insecurities. So many people while working underestimate others just by labels. No I don’t mean men discriminating women but women discriminating men and even other women. I want to shout: step out of it, there is a beautiful world out there to think about and explore, instead we are just creating problem where there is none.
I woke up and climbed the wall to find myself more confident about myself, feeling more appreciative towards love and finally also able to love.
